thoughts

I read something related to Uranus leaving one sign and affecting another, it could be that or simply life keeps on getting unnecessarily complicated. This morning I felt overwhelmed by tasks I was given plus a few money related problems, two disputes with my internet provider and the bank and somehow i kept on talking to myself and saying is not a big deal, people go through worst... yeah but fuck it was a lot to take at 10:30 am with just coffee. Now with all the information we have we somehow want to ignore and be "over" the feeling of sadness just because we should be "ok". No, i just vented, let it out, cried a bit, drank some water and gained control back. So I proceeded ... organized my claim/dispute papers, organized my desk, played some music, but it had to be embraced first so I could understand that my body was just overloading. We need those little mindfulness breaks otherwise we are pushing ourselves to a cliff.

Pierdo la admiración que representaba tu prescencia con los actos egoístas que ahora son tu escencia. Humildad! Se predicaba pero de esta nunca se tomaba todo fue un truco que ni con magia se esfumará Tensiones dominan el ambiente !Qué resistencia tienes a ser buena gente!

"Cualidades reconocidas como la belleza que siempre admiras ahora es manchada de rojo y espesa como el almíbar. Cuántos años más lamentándolo todo, para luego exponerlo como recuerdo de lucha como si no causó enojos. Un pueblo que sonríe, eso es cuando están las cámaras pero llora cada día cuando estámos solos en nuestras casas"

Latepost pics are the best, they reflect how you felt in the past however you give that moment, that feeling, in the future...  Once you have acknowledge it. -ASHF

If a mistake is made... and in a lifetime plenty are, forgiveness should be something easy... it is to me I may be upset or surprised for a mistake of any kind, but a fixable mistake should not be punished as a non-fixable mistake. So how come we can forgive others in the event of a small or big but 'fixable' mistake and we can't expect the same? Every day is indeed a struggle, every day I try to find ways to live my life and proceed with my life 'duties'; going to work, cleaning after myself, doing the dishes, we can't focus on fixable mistakes when we are not and will never be perfect. At the end we all have something to fix.

Qué cruel es tu forma de amar, que egoísta es mi forma de pensar, que incriminatoria es mi forma de interpretar, que osadía es atreverse a amar.

Viernes por la noche de una Semana Santa llueve con dulzura y de pronto la casa está oscura. Un sonido acogedor trae la lluvia, el viento aprovecha y también la ayuda. Bajo cuatro velas se intensifica la dulzura, ahora la lluvia es agresiva, imponente y definitiva. ASH